Who Am I?

One of my reasons for writing this blog is to share my feelings, and give a glimpse into life. Through college, and various professional training events, I have participated in personality profiles, temperament inventories, spiritual gift surveys, etc... I find some of them interesting, some far fetched, and a couple too accurate. A couple of those tools have pegged my personality and describes me accurately. Those tools have compared as sharing some of the same qualities as Moses. Thinking about that I have looked at Moses. One of the first conversations we read Moses having with God is in Exodus 3:11: "And Moses said unto God, Who am I, that I should go unto Pharaoh, and that I should bring forth the children of Israel out of Egypt?" Of that conversation I relate well with Moses when he asks God the question: "Who am I?" I think that just about every Monday, and sometimes on Sunday: Who am I? or better yet: "What am I doing?" Like Moses I keep looking for excuses, I keep trying to see if God has a plan B for this thing called ministry. He never lets me out of this thing though. I can associate well with Moses. I know how it is to attempt at getting people organized to go in the direction God is directing only to have a small faction, rise up and make the statement: "We don't want to go in that direction. We want to go this way? or can we have a vote and get a new leader and go back to Egypt." Some days it's hard to be a pastor because the people you have been called to lead, don't support you. When I find myself asking myself: Who Am I? I return to scripture and look at what God told Moses: "Certainly I will be with you!" Exodus 3:12. God will be with me. No matter what comes no matter what takes place God will be with me during the time of lows, during the time of great times, and all times. Knowing this helps me to get out of bed on Monday.

Why I named my blog AAAAARRRRRRGH

If you happened to stumble upon this blog, you may be asking: "Why is this called AAAAARRRRRRGH?" Well it fits me. Those are the words that my favorite comic strip character utters when he makes an attempt at kicking the proverbial football. If you have read the comic strip you know that from time to time Lucy holds a football for Charlie Brown to kick. Just as he gets there ready to kick the ball she yanks it away. He goes flying up in the air, screaming: AAAAARRRRRRGH , and then lands on his back, dazed and his aspirations like him are flat on his back!
That is how I feel sometimes in ministry, and maybe you do too. You work on a project or a ministry initiative, possibly even with an emerging leader, and just as your getting there to see the thing launched into the air, Lucy, or someone like her, yanks it out and your left flat on your back.
However, I admire Charlie Brown. He keeps getting up, and trying it again. Time after time he attempts to kick the football and never does. I find myself disappointed at times with people, frustrated and even hurt, but if I am to be the Pastor/Leader/Coach that God has called me to be I must get up, and try again with hopes that someday I will get to kick that ball!!!!